fear, and love YOU, the LORD JESUS CHRIST

I did again, so I restarting on. This afternoon when something that make me uncomfortable like the arrow thrusting my right bowel, I did to relieving by myself, so I know I fail. But to the new thing and good, I will believe and come to YOU again, oh my LORD JESUS CHRIST. 

I don't know how to, so teach me to fear YOU, because YOU are my strength, that can protect me from everything evil.

I don't know how to, so teach me to love YOU, because YOU are my treasure, that can sustain me, when I'm feel loneliness, or empty.

Oh, Lord of all ; look at me now. It's the time to YOU to visiting me, but please it doesn't me to revenge the evil doing that I had been done, but let YOU touched me so I get those two thing so I could continuing this.

What have YOU waiting for ? Please. I can't wait any longer. Don't make me wait any longer if YOU don't tell me at least the wisdom to get there. I fear to hurting YOU, and want to love YOU more than before. I know the two things, but check my hearth, my mind, my body, and my spirit ; fix me, oh.. GOD in the name of JESUS CHRIST. Amen.